i need to flood someplace with my random mixed confused wild feelings that would go away after spilling whats inside. if being honest would lose you, i only have myself to blame. i'm being drawn closer to you each day. to the point where i almost can tell you anything, i realised that all those doings was because you had something in for me. i want this friendship so badly because i thought i could turn to you if i needed any help and that you'll always be there for me. now i know, you just want me, not this friendship but me. but my dearest friend, the honest truth is that i only want this friendship, nothing more than that.